I’ve decided to stop.
internally.
diving down to the quiet dark space
within.
no matter the turmoilt above
the callings,
the weathers.
arriving in silence.
I don’t owe anymore,
there is no debt.
I don’t have to take over,
fill silence or need
with comfort or depth.
right now,
I am recovering.
re-collecting.
I am horting my energy
for my own benefit.
I’m done with granting in advance,
giving people a head start,
believing in benefits of the doubt.
I’m coming home right now
after years of roaming the world
ready to fully rest.
I don’t aim to stay here forever.
but I need time to embody my experiences,
to digest,
to detox and declutter,
to anchor,
before I set out to a new path.
I might have been sharing a little too freely,
too kindly.
I’m glad I did.
I will always want to lead with generosity.
of course I could keep
more to myself
but I don’t need to hoard
what I am the source of.
My life has proven
that energy runs in full circles anyway.
What I give will find it’s way back to me
differently
but with the same vibration.
Not because I’m expecting it to,
but because it likes to return home, too.

xxj