Ich spüre Dich schon lange nicht mehr.
Category: Allgemein
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Verschwendete Zeit?
Verschwendete Zeit?
Allein.
Wie viel Selbstwertgefühl hast Du?
Wie viele Fragen?Kopf oder Herz?
Ein Denker? Ein Herzensmensch?Krank oder gesund?
Wie viele Fragen hast Du?Wer bist Du eigentlich?
Kopf oder Zahl?
Wer bist Du eigentlich?
Hast Du Dich verloren?Wie weh tut es?
Wieso kannst Du nichts sagen?
Wieso?
Wieso kannst Du nichts sagen?
Ich hasse es, dass Du nichts sagen kannst.
Mit dem Kopf gegen die Wand.
Du verlierst sowieso.
Du ewiger Verlierer.
Du wartest. Immer noch.
Worauf denn?
Weisst du worauf?
Wie viele Fragen hast Du?Wo tut es weh?
Wieso kannst Du es nicht sagen?
Wer bist Du?
Wieso weisst Du das nicht?
Dann bist Du verloren.Was ist Die Lösung?
Keine Antwort.So viel Zeit.
Wieso hast du keine Zeit?
Was ist Liebe?
Wer bist Du?
Wieso kannst Du es nicht sagen?
Wieso bist Du so Stumm?Woher kommt dieser Zwiespalt?
Du hörst gar nichts mehr.
Nichts um Dich herum. Nicht Dich selbst.
Machst Du Dir Sorgen?
Machst Du Dir schon wieder Sorgen?
Wieso?
Irgendetwas ist hier falsch.Was ist mit Deiner Kraft passiert?
Ist sie weg?
Wieso?
Wieso weisst Du das nicht?Weisst Du überhaupt irgendetwas?
Das es weh tut?
Wo tut es denn weh?
Wieso kannst Du es nicht sagen?xx jana
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In doubt
I have found myself being in doubt.
I think all of us have those moments every now and then, when we question ourselves. our decisions. our actions. I think we all have those moments when we don’t feel like things are going quite right. When we ask ourselves, whether this is the happiness in life, we have been waiting for. Or if this is in true fact unhappiness, that we have gotten stuck in, without realising.
Finding out who we are and what we need and want in life seems to be a never-ending process.
But I think it’s the most important thing to do.
For me.
In order to find true happiness, which I would never have to doubt.So, what do you want in life?
What are the things you could never compromise about?
What are the things you would regret forever, if you didn’t do, reach or tried them?Right now, I find those questions so hard to answer – doesn’t that already say enough?
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My favourite summer drinks
I’m back with a summery topic!
Sorry that I didn’t post anything for so long.
In this post I wanna share with you some drinks I know from the time when I was working in a Bar and which are quite popular in Switzerland.
I usually don’t drink strong alcoholic cocktails, I prefer white whine or prosecco instead.
Here are a few easy recipes of my favourite light summer drinks! Enjoy!
HUGO
fresh, light, sweet, yummy!Dash of elderflower sirup
2/3 Prosecco
1/3 Sparkling water
Garnish with mint leaves, lime slices (squeeze them in) and icecubes
GESPRITZTER SÜSS/SPRITZER SWEET
sweet, light2/3 White whine
1/3 Sprite
Garnish with a slice of orange, icecubes
APEROL SPRITZ
light, slightly bitter4cl Aperol
1dl Prosecco
Dash of sparkling water
Garnish with a slice of orange and icecubes
APEROL SOUR OR AMARETTO SOUR
sour, slightly bitter, sweet, fresh4cl Aperol or Amaretto
2cl Sugar Syrup
2cl Lemon juice
Garnish with slices of lemon, orange, lime, mint and icecubes(easy recipe to make sugar syrup yourself: https://whatscookingamerica.net/Sauces_Condiments/SimpleSyrup.htm)
MARA
sweet, fruity, fresh4cl/dash Passionfruit syrup
1/4 Passionfruit (seeds)
1dl Prosecco
Dash of sparkling water
Garnish with a slice of orange, mint and icecubes
MOJITO
fresh, strong, sweet, sour4dl White Rum
1Tablepoon Brown Sugar
1/2 Lime (sliced and squeezed)
4-5 Leaves of mint (missing in this picture)
tiny dash of Sugar Syrup if you like it sweetMix all of this well and crush it with a mortar.
Fill up with sparkling water and ice. Crushed ice is perfect, also works with normal icecubes (when adding a bit more water)I’m sure you’re going to love this!
xx jana
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Broken
Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged,
Missing me one place search another,
I stop somewhere waiting for you.– Walt Whitman, Song of Myself
Weird – to find myself at this same place again.
Still it’s not the same.I’ve been wondering about
how much sadness one can take.
And how much disappointment.The future I have wished for myself seems impossible to reach.
Instead I need to let you go. So you can grow.
You deserve to grow.
What do I deserve?
Do I care about what I deserve, when it comes to you?
I care about loss.
And I care about my dreams that have been shattered.
I care about loneliness.
And I care about
you.Fairness, right?
Let the one you love become the person he deserves to be.
And maybe let him be this person with someone
else.
Free him of all his promises.
Free him of all the pressure you put on him.
Free him of you.
Let him go.
Because it’s
you.Is it selfish to ask: ‘and what about me?’
What about the things I had and will have to go through?
What about the way I’ve been feeling?
Cause I feel left out. I am losing.
You don’t owe me anything.
And still
no one can safe me
but
you.I know you feel like you’ve lost everything.
I have lost everything too.
Because I lost
you.How long will this sadness last this time?
I have welcomed this deep brokenness like an old friend.
10 years from now, will I still shudder when I hear your name?
Will my heart still sigh in pain
because it remembers
you?Dear darling
It has always been you.
You stole my heart.
I know it is safe with you.
Whatever might happen.
This is out of my hands.
Nevertheless
I will keep you forever in my mind
and I will miss you
every day
because
I love
you.I hope you’ll find what you are searching for.
It’s all about the decisions we make.
xx jana
letters from xxj. 