did you need to leave at first to come home now?
does coming home require you to leave wherever else you were?

Transitioning.
Bearing it, the neither nor,
the blend between past and future,
the liking of the obsolete and the young
just the same.

A quest.
Some things cannot be understood
or clearly outspoken.
Some phases cannot be obviated
or skipped over.

Relentlessly.
No matter how hard you beg.
You’re in charge
every day, no pause.
Hiding won’t grant you relief.

Questioning.
Adapting might be the easiest choice.
Giving up might be too straightforward.
Collecting achievements
as if someone actually cared.

Deciding
what to say ‘no’ to
constantly
because this is what defines your
reality.

Healing.
Processes don’t ask for their end,
they ask of you to endure.
The same way cycles like to repeat themselves
until you find a way to change nature.

Powerless.
But owning the place
you’ve put yourself in.
What a gift to be able
to experience life as it unfolds.

Perspectives.
You only have one moment in time.
Only one way to look at it.
You are not infinite right now.
But maybe you will be.

Or maybe you already were.

xxj